Theres a headache creeping up on me, its slowly working its way up the back of my neck. I'm feeling rather melancholic today, lots of thoughts racing through my head, so fast that i barely manage to catch the tail end before another absurd thought comes toward head on.

"This is a burden I cannot carry, it way too heavy for me, I'm not that strong afterall.... "

*listens to "The Luckiest- Ben Folds Five", feels alot better, tension is slowly draining down neck....

I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

All relaxed now, time to get back to work.

My blog title has been changed. I've had complaints that my current lifestyle no longer fits the description of a "T.V. addict". So until I find a more suitable title, this one will have to do.

Question of the day: What makes the whole go round, money?

Relationships keep the world spinning, keeps people breathing, sustains hope in those who have lost faith in themselves. Its the connection between people, small groups, large groups or even between two individuals.... without that interaction and communion, people die.

We, being the complexed beings that we are, are constantly evolving to suit our ever changing environment. I find myself having to put on different masks everyday, throughout the day.... a mask for every situation.

" Folks, step right up, marvel at the many faces of Lem, NICE Lem, LOVING Lem, DIPLOMATIC Lem, ACOMMODATING Lem, FUCKED UP Lem, PRIDEFUL Lem and many more. You've heard all about him, now see him change before your very eyes!"

At times I'm not quite sure who I am, am I a nice person? (or am I good at pretending to be nice)...... Am I a real arsehole? (or do I try too hard to be one).... Of all the people I've had the privilege to know on a deeper level (me included), I'm still the hardest person to figure out, may sound unusual but half the time I don't know what I'm thinking...

But there is one thing I've learnt, that is that those friends closest to you can see you clearer than you see yourself. I guess they have the luxury of looking down on your life from a bird's eye view. And in the same way, I have looked down on my friend's lives (literally.. its a height thing) and seen how beautiful they are on the inside, my true friends (you noe who you are, YES, you're in that list too) are the best
people in the world. They have their masks too, but the closer I look, the more translucent the mask appears.... and if I look hard (and long) enough, I'm always rewarded with something beautiful.

It can be a scary though,when our masks become translucent... what are we suppose to hide behind then, huh?