The inner workings of a deluded mind

Unfiltered thoughts clash, often collide
Despair emerges the victor here
No use fighting it, a lost cause
Take refuge in present company
For they have lost as well
Maybe less, maybe more
Makes little difference in the end
After all, eventually....
We will see eye to eye.

It came, it went.. thats it, don't ask me why this and that, I don't have the answers .... I prefer it this way. Thanks for all the msgs/calls etc, much appreciated :)

Time to bitch, I'm very unhappy with how the Financial accounting subject is being conducted. Four lecturers- they contradict each other, the coordinator contradicts the textbook, and the test contradicts everything else! Last night's test was a disaster to say the least, had to spend an entire night wallowing in self pity. I don't think I've felt so horrible before, the test was far from straight forward and riddled with mistakes... I can't see what was the purpose of the test, to evaluate knowledge of accounting or to decipher and intepret the shortcomings of a poorly written test. I'm really pissed... I'm still not over it!

Good news is, after 3 weeks (finally), we got back the final grade for the previous accounting subject, and thank God for the result. I'm pleased with the grade and at least that gives me some consolation, not all of 'em (RMIT staff) are f$&ked up.

Looks like no partying for me this weekend, so far behind in my uni work, to think that the first exam is less than a month away and I've stil got one major assignment, one minor assignment and a presentation in the works.*sigh* I'm gonna get re-aquainted with the fine art of cooking Indonesian stir fried noodles (minus the frying).

Still
The world is silent
The leaves are asleep, slouched over
The lights are awake, blinding flicker
My world is silent
I find my solace here

It one of those Monday mornings, where everything seems wrong and the my life feels rather "out of sync". Slept pretty well last night though, maybe its just the weather, so cold... so tempted to stay in bed. Was Mother's day yesterday, sent a bouquet of flowers to Singapore to surprise her, I think she was pretty happy to recieved them, called me up and we ended up chatting for at least 45 minutes.

Went to Publicity on Saturday night, I kinda like the place, the layout's good and the music aint that bad.. they even played the "boogie" song *winkz*... but i found myself having to deal with a couple of drunk girlies, very dejavu, haven't been in that position for awhile but found myself handling it like a pro, I've had heaps of practice in the past.... (yup). Met quite a few people I hadn;t seen in awhile, and even "alien" looked pretty hot that night, or could be my intoxicated state affecting my judgement (most likely).

Pressure at school is really coming full on, witht he exams round the corner and with assignments due, time to buck up- BIG TIME! One thing i'm really looking forward to is Mae's arrival, wooohooo! Thinking of going away for the weekend, take a little break and just chill... can't wait.. *super-big grin*

But... that HHPETS might be coming down on that same weekend, would be a shame if she does though, I probably wont get a chance to meet up with her.... I'm trying to convince her to come down in August *fingers-crossed*.

I need some scotch... and maybe a shot of tequilla, it's gonna be a long day.